Transparent?

I really dunno what I should do. It seems like no one really understand me even those close to me. They seem to treat me as though I'm transparent at times. I really don't like tat feeling, it sucks. What I can tell myself now is to focus on my studies and not let anything affect me. But it seems to be harder to do it rather than saying it, but I will still try my best.

Sometimes I think that they may not want me to be with them; I'm an extra. Laughing, giggling, I can't seem to mix with them.. Country bumpkin I guess i am. I really hope to just quickly clear my O's and don't fret about all these. Seriously.. I really hope I can find best friends, friends that care and put u in first priority.